Apathy

I feel pretty dead inside.

Just wanted to put this somewhere.

oh and i will always be confused, how heavy can the emptiness be

again

I just feel like you're leaving me again. And i feel like puking. And all my dreams for travelling the world with you will finally die, you will be far away, starting your knew life... and I am gonna stay here, miserable, lonely and scared, missing you forever. It is not fair. But it is my fault, I couldn't do it without you, and I am really sad.

I am angry, and scared, and maybe I don't have the right to be... but I am, and I can't change that.

I hate this. Can't go throught this again. I just want to cry, and beat you, then kiss and hug you, then cry some more... I just don't want to feel this again. Don't want to feel left behind... forever